Thursday, January 8, 2009

Idle

Being idle is a horrible state to be in. Blank thoughts, inaction, apathy and atrophy... feeling purposeless... a general state of "meh".

In several conversations this week with friends, a few themes came up, all related to being stuck in stasis.
- What is it that I want to be when I grow up?
- When I am overstimulated/overbooked/overworked, I can accomplish anything. But when I have all the time in the world, I accomplish nothing.
- ROI isn't just reserved for business, but life in general.
- Without an "end product", I see effort as pointless.

And, here's what's really annoying. I can "eliminate" distraction from me all I want. However, the pain of a creative mind is that I'll find new distractions. I can invent them out of thin air.

If something doesn't "stick" soon, if I don't have a "purpose" during the daytime hours, I think I'm going to completely disintegrate into a pile of salt.